I heard the song "You're gonna miss this" by Trace Adkins...and I completely lost it. Not just a tear here..a tear there...no. I was bawling. Then, to make matters worse, I watched the video.
I especially fell apart during the part where the daughter got married and moved into their first place..and as they were fixing it up..she was already talking about buying a house and having babies. The dad said "You're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back. You're gonna wish these days haven't gone by so fast. These are some good times, so take a good look around. You may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this."
I don't know why I'm so affected by this song. I am SO freaking excited for this baby and have wanted it so badly, but maybe I'm just scared that my life is going to be totally different. I mean, obviously I know it will be and it will be hard and great at the same time, but I've had some great times these past 3 years with just Joel and I.
I guess its just made me realize how much I appreciate Joel..and how in these next 5 months I need to make the most out of our time alone, and look forward to this new journey in my life.
I guess we take life for granted. We need to cherish it...whatever stage we are in. It goes by too quickly...and once it passes...its gone.
I hope I'm not giving anyone the wrong impression. I am OVER THE MOON excited. I guess as a future first-time-mom I am allowed to feel overwhelmed, anxious, nervous..you get the picture.
Tell me I'm not alone. Anyone else felt like this?
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:( Although I can't relate...I definitely think it's SO normal to feel that way. That's why country music is the best! It puts into words they way you are feeling, and maybe didn't even know it! Your life is going to be so full of love, even more than you could imagine, when baby j arrives. From what I've heard, once he/she is here, you won't be able to imagine life w/o him/her :)
OH YES!! I cried all the time to Eric... full on sobs, "We are NEVER gonna be alone again!!"
I too wanted the baby SO bad, but then comes the realization that life will never be the same.
I totally empathize with you. I have cried those tears girlfriend.
The truth is... for like 3-6 months (unless you have an angel baby) you really aren't alone... but then comes regularly scheduled nap times, and bed time... and then you can have your hubby ALL to yourself.
Eric and I would go out on date night in those early months and make a pact in the car that we wouldn't talk about the baby... just us. Most of the time it didn't work, but it was fun trying to pretend life was the same...
the crazy part is, when you have your second (i know it is far from your mind) you will cry the same tears... just you will be crying that your life will be changed yet AGAIN! lol
Life is crazy like that.
Sorry about rambling... I just want you to know that you are perfectly normal.
Hugs!
I think everyone thinks at some point, "oh crap, what did we do?! I'll never get to sleep in again" =) But enjoying the time you have together is great. Once your little baby comes it can bring you guys closer together and a depth to your relationship you haven't had before. Yes, it's hard, but good things usually are and take work! I see it as bigger and better. Make it a priority to have time to "remember" what you two are all about! We make sure to, even thru Skype!
Enjoy the last months extra for me, I didn't get to take advantage of it =)
-Deanna
That is SO totally normal! I vividly remember feeling so scared that my relationship with my husband, Chris, was going to change and it was going to be so hard ... the truth is that we still have time alone (that's what grandparents and friends are for!) and we have about two hours after Lily goes to bed to spend with just each other. Mostly though, we LOVE being together as a family of three. In fact, Lily has been asleep for about 2 hours and Chris and I both just went in to look at her sleeping because we missed her. It is completely normal to be nervous but try your best not to be because the best time is yet to come! Just wait until you see Joel holding your precious baby ... it will take your love for him to an entire new level. I am so excited for you!
You are not alone!!! Several weeks ago, I had a complete meltdown, sobbing to Rob how my body would never be the same, how our relationship would never be the same, etc... Silly pregnancy hormones. It's terrifying, but exciting. :)
Oh, then we went to go see Toy Story 3 this weekend-- towards the end, when the mom sends Andy off to college I was a wreck... thinking about telling my son goodbye...and I haven't even met him yet!!
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